Vision and Revision
Before I started homeschooling, I listened to a series of tapes about a vision for homeschooling families. The speaker, George Grant was illustrating how we only use a small portion of the brain’s capabilities. He told a story of Teddy Roosevelt and how he was able to dictate two letters in different languages to two different secretaries while reading a book at the same time. Even though that feat may not be possible for our untrained minds, he suggested, our children could surpass us in their abilities. We would stand amazed at what God could do through faithful families who trained their children at home to be warriors for God’s Kingdom.
Last month I had the privilege of talking with Dr. Grant about that vision and had to admit, I seemed to be in a season of disillusionment. Oh, I still listened to and was inspired by all the getting started with homeschooling talks that are so popular this time of year. It is not that I have any regrets but I no longer am starry eyed about how it all will turn out. Dr. Grant admitted that he too was not sure about his children at certain points in their life before they were adults. But the point he made was we really do not know what the future will hold for us or for our children. In the meanwhile we are to continue faithful to our calling as homeschool parents.At this point in my life, we have graduated our oldest from homeschool, and, Lord willing, will have another graduate this coming year. In addition we have another in high school and our youngest is in elementary school. On bad days I joke to myself that I even though I have made glaring mistakes with my teenagers, I still have hopes of my youngest emerging from my parenting relatively unscathed!
But, as I said, that is on my bad days. When I am thinking clearly and am in more of a spiritual balance (!) I can recognize much grace and much delight in all the years I have homeschooled. I have the fondest memories of early homeschooling, of amazing field trips, of entertaining talent shows, of countless mornings and afternoons just curled up on the couch with my children around me listening to me read aloud from many many living books. Homeschooling has given me the opportunity to teach my children as individuals, to tailor their lesson offerings to what they needed. I used the same curriculum through the years with all four of my children and each one took something different away from it. One child drank in all the beauty and creativity of the arts, another child’s imagination was fed by all the classic tales of fantasy, still another was able to keep up with his academic work even though he had huge difficulties reading, as I read everything aloud to him and we delighted together in the books that my older children read on their own without me. And now my youngest looks at me wide eyed at the antics of the Wilder children in Farmer Boy, the third time reading it aloud for me, but it is all new to him and we are both laughing and being amazed together at the hard work, huge quantities of food and industriousness of farm life.
I can honestly say I am looking forward to another year of homeschooling. I love that I can tell my oldest son what he needs to graduate and he can on his own, do the necessary work in a mixture of self study courses and outside classes. I love that I am still reading quite a bit aloud to my middle son, that I can choose books that I love to read, that I am looking forward to reading along with him. Books on theology, on worldview, on culture along with classics that I never got around to reading myself. And even though it is the fourth go round on teaching year three, I love that I can share those beloved books scheduled for this year with yet another child who will look at me with wonder.
But one of the biggest benefits of our homeschooling journey has been that I have become a lifetime learner. Earlier this month, I visited my daughter who is living and going to school in NYC. Before my trip I did lots of research on self guided walking tours. I am never happier than when I can visit a city and know all the stories behind the buildings, recognize the architecture and realize the life that was happening at the time that building was built. I get such a thrill looking at a street or a walkway and knowing that an artist, writer, musician, etc whose work has delighted me has walked those same streets, lived in that very building. So I purchased several books, checked out others from the library, and arrived in the city armed with a list of places I wanted to visit and guided walks for nearly every area of the city. The first day I decided to try to make an early morning gallery talk at the Metropolitan Museum of Art on Frans Hals. Because he is a Dutch painter, I felt an affinity with him. The talk did not disappoint. I left with a new understanding of life in the Netherlands, of the reformation, of the value of art in the common life. The rest of my week was filled with visits to other historic museums, libraries, churches and sites where certain events occurred. I had my trusty guidebook with me at all times. When my daughter accompanied me, she put up with my “obsession” as she called it, with the history of the city. I know it was humiliating for her to be with such an obvious tourist!
I do believe my years of reading about history, art, literature and so much more has whetted my appetite to continue to learn when the opportunity presents itself. For that I am so very thankful. I did not know or expect that when I started homeschooling my children. My goal was for my children to be lifetime learners, to be self-directed, responsible, freedom loving adults. The thing is that we really can not dictate what our children will be like as they get older. It is encouraging to see many of those traits in my children. Yet, we are all unfinished works, even this mom who is on the other side of 50, has so very much to learn. The upside is that our God is forming us daily into the image of Christ just as He is forming our children. We are not perfect, we make lots of mistakes, and yet, we press on. We may not always be the best example to our children. Some days it seems I have to do a lot of apologizing to my children. But instead of making me feel weaker, I know that it is the necessary burning off of all that dross. As my children get older, they are forgiving of me in a more understanding way. For this I am grateful.
It is good to have vision, to see in your children how God might use them in the building of His kingdom. I just need to be reminded that how that vision will be filled in is not for me to control.
And so another year begins. May your homeschool year be full of grace, rich in delight and grounded in His truths,
—JMT